4/14/2014 4 Comments
Part one of two.
***DISCLAIMER: My sharing of this information is in NO WAY intended to REPLACE or SERVE AS MEDICAL ADVICE of any kind! It is offered here to serve as INSPIRATION ONLY into the kind of personal healing we are ALL able to access within ourselves and is to be used at the READER'S OWN DISCRETION! Seek the help of qualified professionals when you need them (Holistic or otherwise) because we don't HAVE to do this alone and the more support we can receive the better! Everything mentioned here is compatible right along with complementary, holistic, and allopathic treatment as well.
The first time I had an issue with a herniated disc in my lower back and into my sciatic was when I was pregnant with my oldest daughter over 20 years ago. It was not a nice experience but it was minor. Over the years I experienced it a handful of times but it was short in duration and nothing very extreme until a few years ago, after my husband's mother died. I was down and out HARD for a good six weeks. I could not stand, walk or lay down. I slept in a chair. I ate in the chair. I sat in the chair. I LIVED in the chair! It was excruciating, but the whole time, I never felt like I was in a bad place or was "suffering" in any manner, even though I was in tremendous pain physically. I knew that that experience too, like all of the experiences in our lives, would pass.
I live a holistic lifestyle so my treatment regimen included all manner of holistic approaches including herbs, energy work, body work, homeopathy, self-work, yoga, exercises, etc. Nothing seemed to work fast enough for me because it impeded my life so greatly, but I attempted to remain patient, and in time, it improved and I returned to my routines. I must admit that like every circumstance we endure, I learned a lot about myself during this time and I was extremely grateful for that! It never FULLY healed after that though, and I carried it forward with me. I ignored it as it nagged and ached everyday and flared up here and there until it began to build and progressively get worse again over time.
Eventually, a couple of months ago, the pain began to crowd out the rest of my day and become my main focus. It hurt. It had gotten bad like that time a few years ago - only then it was my lower back only and this time it had added the sciatic of my whole right leg to the mix. I did a lot of lamaze-type breathing and even more groaning and crying!!! I once again began my regimen of natural approaches and was recieving treatment from multiple qualified practitioners, but I was seeing no improvement this time. Not even a slow one. Yesterday I had squatted down in a store to check out something on a bottom shelf and almost had a panic attack for a moment because I did not think I would be able to get up, but I did. I didn't feel good. I hadn't felt good in awhile. I wasn't sleeping and I just hurt. A lot. I began to feel really discouraged this time. I was having a much harder time reminding myself that "this too would pass" this time, even though I knew better.
Last night I was preparing to go to bed and I was stalling because the very thought of the pain and insomnia that accompanied going to bed was extremely distressing to me. I had tried sleeping with my back on a pillow and the pillow had made me slide out of the bed so I felt I had nothing left to try . . . or DID I?
I decided to go back to basics and address my pain and issues through the use of affirmations. This is nothing new for me and I have cured myself of countless ailments from asthma (both acutely and chronically), to women's issues, to colds, bruises, fevers, bone infections, and many things in between so my BELIEF in the efficacy of this type of method (I have both lived and practised holistically for close to fifteen years now) was already well in place. Throughout the years in my business and in my personal life, I have come to recognize the role that our thoughts, emotions, and beliefs play on our health and that they are intricately connected. I had been trying to work out the things I felt related to this problem both last time and this time (it was financial worry, if you are wondering) but I just couldn't create a breakthrough for myself. I was truly struggling.
Last night I just stopped TRYING to "let go" of my stuff, and stopped TRYING to analyze it. Quite frankly, I just didn't have the energy to do it anymore anyway. I was just too sore & too tired. I stood at the side of my bed, took a few nice deep breaths and began to affirm to myself that "all the resources I required were available to me inside at all times" and I just kept repeating it. I climbed into my bed and it DIDN'T HURT to do so! "Okay! NOW we're getting somewhere!", I thought! I just kept breathing deeply and repeating my affirmation as I lay there COMFORTABLY and without pain for the first time in probably a month until I fell asleep. As I awoke to roll over several times last night, I repeated the affirmation until I fell back to sleep each time and GUESS WHAT?!? I had NO pain the entire night and slept wonderfully!!!
This morning when I woke up and climbed off my bed (it's over waist high), I did not yelp, or have to do strange yoga moves just to be able to walk from my room but instead just casually strolled out! It was like it had never even been sore! My spine had become tight and sore other places as well as I had made accommodations in my posture while it was painful at the base and even THOSE spots felt loose and open! It has now been all day and I am still pain-free! I am continuing to do my affirmations and will continue as long as necessary, but I am confident that my back has healed! As I cleaned the house today, I could not resist pushing my limits a little (okay - A LOT) and although it may not have been the brightest idea, I had to show myself that all was well with it and it IS indeed! My dogs have not had the privilege of doing that much dancing with me in a long time (don't let them fool you - they LOVE it)!
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