"Death is not an end to struggle, but merely just an unnecessary pause."
In my younger days, for years I wished to end my own life. I was lost & lonely inside & I was not accustomed to the idea that it would get better or that I was worth anything that was valuable enough to be alive. I thought I hated myself.
Honestly, I lived because yes, something told me it was not a helpful solution, but really I stayed because I didn't want to leave my cats. What would they do without me?
I have come a million miles from those years. I have learned a lot & I have learned that my sadness stemmed not from hating myself but from somehow believing I was SUPPOSED TO. I am glad I decided to stay. I would have missed so much! I would have wasted my opportunity to bring love & joy & light into the world!! I would have wasted my opportunity to learn just how important & valuable I really am & how beautiful & fulfilling life can be!
In the spiritual & intuitive work I am fortunate enough to do nowadays, I encounter those who have completed suicide quite often. The loved ones they leave behind are in need of much healing & I feel I am here to help them find it.
The energies of those who have taken their own lives (both spirits & ghosts as well) vary in many regards. Those who were ill with degenerative diseases, those with substance abuse involved, those who had mental & emotional wellness issues, some who were grieving, some who had secrets, some who were sad & many others.
Aside from those suffering from degenerative & painful diseases, everyone else have so many things in common - they ALL say they realize that there were OTHER & BETTER ways, that they regret leaving that way, that dying did NOT end their pain (even with non-suicide deaths, those who die with sadness, anger or bitterness also communicate those feelings & pain remain until they are SUCCESSFULLY worked through), that they are sorry, & that it's a shame it took them dying to realize just HOW MUCH they had to be grateful for!
Suicide doesn't solve our problems - understanding does!!
When we die (of whatever cause), we are faced with the energy of each of our choices - small, large, bad, good - & we must then accept, come to terms with, & assimilate them before we can move forward & be peaceful. If we refuse, our pain & struggles remain with us, even in death!! Some might view this as "Karma" (cause & effect).
Suicide is not considered a spiritual "sin" but does appear to be felt as an opportunity lost & one that ultimately comes around again. Ask yourself - are the crappy problems you have in your life REALLY ones you wish to have to encounter again until you figure them out? No thanks!
The bottom line here is that yes, suicide can be one solution but it is one with a high price to pay spiritually! Higher than just your life! Death is not an end to our suffering, but merely an unnecessary pause!!
Please take to heart some of the lessons that others who have made the mistake of suicide try to teach us & if you are contemplating suicide, GET HELP instead!! You don't want to have to die before you begin to appreciate the fact that you have the chance to live!!
Suicide may seem like it is the best way of regaining control of a life that feels out of your control, but truly, the only way to do this is to EMBRACE YOUR LIFE & LIVE IT TO THE FULLEST, because one day, your life will end & at least then it REALLY WILL be on YOUR terms & NOT like with suicide - which is on everybody else's!!
Seek the support you need! You will NEVER regret not giving up!!!
Peace, love, light & joy!! Huugs & you are NEVER alone!!
- Melinda Erin Whitehead - December 2015!!